Today was a bit trying.
Despite my best efforts to get to bed at about 11:30 and wake up around 6:15 so I can have breakfast ready by the time my husband gets home and my kids wake up, which I believe would allow me sufficient sleep to operate during the day, it hasn’t worked as planned most nights. Sometimes I wonder if Jayla is punking me. She still won’t sleep through the night. I know some of it is related to teething, but I think other than that, she just screams randomly to keep me on my toes.
Additionally, I can’t seem to wind down. Even on the rare night when I climbed into bed at 10:30, I could not, despite being dog tired, go to sleep. I tried to follow the advice I received from the sleep specialist, including turning everything off for awhile before bed, but that actually did more harm than good, because even when I turned off all electronics, my stupid busy nag of a brain just REFUSED to chill out. It was ridiculous! I promise you, I was having the dumbest most miscellaneous thoughts EVER. I’m sitting there thinking about lunch ideas for my kids, story ideas, recipes, outfits that would look cute on me if I wasn’t so fat, scenes from The Golden Girls… I had to turn on the television just so my brain would shut up!
For some reason, today the exhaustion went into over drive, and I was sluggish and groggy. Some of it may be that I am trying to taper down my sugar intake. Either way it goes, I felt flipping awful and was not in the mood to go to church. Our Moody classes began today.
When I got there, my mood immediately perked up. We are working through Genesis, which gives me a good opportunity to start from the beginning and continue working my way through again. I had gotten as far as Judges and fell off. Now I can review some of the concepts from the book. We just did a brief overview today and have to read the first few chapters for next week, but during our discussion, I realized something…My exhaustion has nothing on how Moses must have felt.
In addition to dealing with one of the most irritating, ungrateful and unfocused group of people in the Bible, Moses is also the author of the first five books of the Bible. When the heck did he have time to write all that? There are 187 chapters and almost 6,000 verses. And for those of you who have read Leviticus (which is, in my humble opinion, the most boring Old Testament book possible) with all of its detail regarding offerings, sacrifices and law, could you imagine trying to transcribe all that stuff? I remember sitting in college classes and getting frustrated when professors spoke faster than I could write, and having to develop my own shorthand for better note-taking. (And then I’d forget what the shorthand was supposed to really say. Fun times). I guess I’m just curious as to how the process of God speaking to Moses about things in Genesis in particular, things that happened before Moses was born, went down. And I found myself wondering how God revealed the Pentateuch to Moses. I wondered if Moses was like me–whenever he tried to lay his head down, God pounced on him and deluged him with visions or dreams, or both.
Either way it goes, at least I have opportunities to rest. Could I use more? Yep. Actually, strike that. I don’t want more rest, I want more energy. Regardless, it to me is an amazing feat that Moses was able to manage to find time to write the foundational books of the Bible while dealing with a massive group of complaining people. This was before espressos too? Oh, NOOOOOO.
But as we know, nothing is impossible for God, and if He has something for you to do, He’ll empower you to do it.